Sunday, January 16, 2011

Its the end

Today feels different somehow
Living on the edge of a breakthrough
Yesterday’s pain of people’s disdain
Didn’t hurt me as much as it used to
Maybe I’ve found my remedy

Standing here on my stage
Why do your stares look so empty?
Strangers and friends all around
Funny how it still seems so lonely
Maybe not such a tragedy

I don’t wanna have to make pretend
And say what I will not want to
Not just to please you
I won’t be forced to love all who say they love me
But never know what makes me content completely

I'm gonna let the wind blow
Leave the past behind
The memories will do just fine
They'll saturate in time

I’m gonna stand up and walk my life
Not afraid to stumble and not afraid to fall
I’m gonna speak up, I’m gonna say what’s on my mind
Never mind if they don’t hear me
I know the ones who love me
I know the ones who will hold me
Just the way I stand
Just the way I am


I have boxed everything you gave me including my feelings for you into this box & never going to open it again. Hating you is the last thing I will ever do. That is what makes US so different. Goodbye MWKM !! Wishing you all the BEST in your future.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Forgotten

All alone on a Thursday night
Outside I see the rain is falling
Inside I'm slowly dying
But the rain will hide my crying

And you, don't you know my tears will burn the pillow
Set this place on fire 'cause I'm tired of your lie
All I needed was a simple, "Hello"
But the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cry

I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure
My heart never knew such pain
And you leave me so confused

Never wanted to see things your way
Had to go astray for why was I such a fool
Now I see that the grass is greener
Is it too late for me to find my way home
How could I be so wrong?

Leaving me all alone
Don't you know my tears will 'cause an inferno
Romance of these flames, why should I take the blame?
You were the one who left me neglected, apology not accepted
At me to the broken hearts you've collected

I gave you all of me
How was I to know, you would weaken so easily
I don't know what to do

Monday, January 3, 2011

Forgot the Unforgettable

You left me, I gave my heart to loneliness
I had thought this would be liberating
What am I waiting for? I'm not living a new life
Missing you is the greatest torment
When I close my eyes, I can hear you breathing
I remain facing your memories alone

Because I can't forget, forgetting you is more cruel than loving you
When I bravely go look at other people's eye-expressions
Unexpectedly, I see my own scars
Unforgettable, there's nothing more cruel than loss
I can't not admit that your embrace is the deepest
I've lost the ability to do things selflessly for others*

I forgot to think of you, in this world without you
Now I finally understand this separation
When I close my eyes, I can hear you breathing
Why do I still remain facing your memories?

I forgot to think of you, in this world without you
Now I finally understand this separation-- I've forgotten you

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Tears

I want to control myself
I won't let anyone see me cry
Pretend that I don't care about you; I don't want to think of you
I blame myself for not having courage

My heart hurts until I can't breathe
I can't find the traces you've left behind
(I can't find the traces left behind yesterday)
Eyes wide open, watching you, though I've no strength
As you disappear at the end of the world

I can't find a resolute reasoning
I will never feel your gentleness again
Tell me, where is space?
There, does it have a limit or not?

So towards the meteors, I'll make a wish
To let you know I love you