My 21st Birthday !!

Date of Birth : 10 June 1987
Place of Birth : Chinese Maternity, Seremban
Description : A girl name Clara Tan was born....:)

This year events happenings for my birthday are as below:

Date: 6th June 2008, Friday
Location: Steamboat at Lobak, Seremban
Price: RM 18 per person
Time:8:00pm till 11:30pm
Description: People invited: Jia Wen, Yun Yuan, Sze Ginn, Xiao Jing and Liu Jie..But only Jia Wen and Yun Yuan is able to make it...Actually wanted to go steamboat on Saturday but Yun Yuan was not free on Saturday..So we changed it to Friday..It all started at 8:30 because i came late...Terhehehe ~:P When i reach then we started eating...Talking about this posting now make me feel sooooo hungry....We 3 girls eat and eat and eat...Cook and boiled...Everything also we do...Everything also we eat...Like monster...Was too engross till i forget to take pictures...Haha...This day ended by just 3 of us merely eating eating eating...

Date: 8th June 2008, Sunday
Location: Home Sweet Home
Time: 5:00pm
Description: A small celebration with all my family members.:):)

Date: 9th June 2008, Monday
Location: INTIMA Office
Time: 12:10pm
Description: As usual, I went to office to be on duty from 12pm-2pm... When i went in the first thing i saw was the board written by Calvin Chung. I kinda forget what he wrote, but it goes something like this :

Dear Clara,

Please go to ARO ( Admissions and Records Office) to update them that you're 1 year older.After that, go to Finance Office and collect your present ( money)...Then, confirm with IMPAC ( INTI Music and Performing Arts Club) that they are going to sing Birthday Song for you.. Lastly, go to GO (General Office) to book a bus for us to go out to celebrate your 21st Birthday !!! Happy birthday ....

From, Calvin Chung

Kelvin

Ha ha...Nice ? :) My first impression before i read i was like...WTH ~~ Work for me to do again...But when i read it was actually some funny stuffs...LOL...

Date: 9th June, 2008, Monday
Time: 9:20pm
Location: INTIMA Office
Description:As usual too, our daily meeting at night starts at 8pm...After the meeting ended, Calvin said everyone lets sing Clara a Happy Birthday Song...I was soooooo touched...Nearly cried :):)

Date: 9th June 2008
Time: 10:10pm
Location: INTI Hostel Room D2-14
Description: I wrote a letter to J saying that i wanted to break up ! And now we are officially no more together....:(:(

Date:10th June 2008, Tuesday
Time: 2:10pm
Location: Bakery, INTI-UC
Description: On Tuesday my class over at 2pm,Ms.Yalini's class...After that me and my classmates went to the bakery to have our lunch...On the way there, we meet Ms.Yalini also...Then we ask her to join us inside the room in the bakery...First she said don't think can join because have to rush some presentation slides for tomorrow..After all of us ordered food and we went back to the room to wait for the food to be served suddenly Ms.Yalini came in with a small little cake saying this is for you Clara...i was like Awwwwwwwwwwwwww.....:):) Nearly broke into tears again...Sweetttttt......I ask Ms.Yalini to stay with us so we can celebrate together...Then together with my classmates and Ms.Yalini we celebrated my birthday ~~~ :)

Date: 10th June 2008, Tuesday
Time: 5:00pm
Location: Midvalley Megamall, KL
Description: A date with my lovely friend, Xiao Jing (Litchi)...Litchi is a China friend i know in college since the year 2006. We have known each other for 2 years...It is really nice to have such a special friend like her..She is different from others :):) We went to Midvalley because she had an job interview in Tun Sambathan area in KL...We went shopping at Miss Selfridge because i could not find any nice clothes in Topshop or Dorothy Perkins :) I also got a voucher or 20% because its my birthday :) Yay !

Date: 10th June 2008, Tuesday
Time: 6:03pm
Location: Carls.Jr, Midvalley
Description: We had Carls for the first time...Always heard about this charbroiled burger but did not manage to find the time to eat it...He he...Actually Litchi does not really fancy this fast food stuffs...But she say its okey...I can eat whatever i feel like eating :):) The burger was soooooooo niceeeeee....Yum Yum....:) The day ended here...

Niceeeeeee :D

I want to take this opportunity to say a very very thanx to many many of my friends who actually wished me from all around the world...From Australia to Malaysia...Through phone to writing me a msg on facebook and friendster...Really really love you guys alot ~ muackies XOXO *huggies*
** Current favourite song : David Cook - You're always be my baby

Allergy Crisis

Hmmmm....Ok...I haven't been updating for my blog like approximately 20 days i think ? Ha ha...Come on la...I am busy k...LOL...Here goes for this posting...Well well....Let me see how should i start...It all happened on 29 May, Thursday...One fine day as usual...6 hours of freaking damn damn damn boring class i have to go through from 8am till 2pm....Arghhhh....I wonder how can i be still alive ? Back to the topic....That night i don't really feel like having anything for dinner so i went down to the INTImart to get some bread and raisins to eat...Sounds like a weird combination of food i should have for dinner rite...Ha ha...I dunno wat to eat ma...LOL ~~ Then suddenly at about 11 something after bathing...I was planning to "start studying"....I suddenly felt how come my legs are so itchy one and red red...That particular time i assumed it was some mosquitoes bite only...30 minutes later....i fell like its become more itchy and the red mark is becoming bigger and bigger and its like spreading to my whole legs....So i quickly get the phone and call my mummy...I told her all about it and i told her that i think its allergy but i told her just my legs ok...Then she said ok...Not so serious yet...Apply that medicine i gave u and it will be fine....So i follow my mum instructions to apply that medicine and went straight to bed after applying because it was really itchy...Sleeping is the only way i can forget about the itchiness...After rolling on my bed for about 1 hour...I felt my hands and neck becoming itchy too...So i decided to go to the toilet to check is the itch spreading there too...And too my dismay it is !!!! I began to panic because i have not have any allergy reaction before this...It was 2am already !!! Everyone is either snoring or in dreamland and i am here having this allergy...So i called my parents again...I was complaining to them and saying that i wanted to go home immediately...I don't want to stay here already...They finally said ok..So now the problem is how am i going to go back !!! So the first person i called was Jason (busy),Ken (sleeping), Liu Jie (never answer) and lastly Samuel.....Sam drove me home....He was the last person that i thought i would trouble and ask him to send me home....He is really my savior...I really owe him...Thanx to him i manage to get home that morning...:) After that i went to the doctor and my allergy become much better....

My Leg with allergy :P

Big Feast at Jogoya Restaurant in Starhill...

Awww....The view inside the restaurant :)

Jogoya is a Japanese buffet with its freshest of seafood, sashimi, tempura and even cooked on demand fare brought straight to your table.

Jogoya means a shop which is full with culture should be visited by the high class people.
Jo - a supreme place
Go- the palace live by the king
Ya- a shop

Location: Relish Floor, Starhill Gallery, Bukit Bintang

A sample of the soft towellete, name card and not forgetting the BILL !! :P

So called "numbered pegs" to put on the food you want and they will send it to you ! And my smart brother accidentally stole one the the peg number peg 015 back..LOL~

OK ! Lets get back to some real business. The food in Jogoya is damn nice. So nice until i don't know which food to eat first. Hmmmm....I think seeing pictures explains more about how the food works there...Ha ha ~~

Yum Yum ~ Beef bacon....Nice....


Maggot soup with chicken backside...Oops..Just joking...Its actually so called 10 types of herbal soup...


People say too many cooks spoiled the food. So look at my brother in-laws creations...
Yum Yum ~~ Delicious... Bamboo + Coconut ? I think he wants to cook the coconut too...

Caught in action: Clara attempting to eat something she hate the most....
Curious of what she is eating ? Than do stay back to see the next picture...


Yes ! Thats right ~ Its Fresh Oyster...I wonder why everyone in Jogoya rushing for this...I don't find it nice at all...Nearly puke while eating this. I had to swallow this damn thing !!

Shrimp anyone ?

A weird combination of food that my dad took consists of abalone, unagi, salmon, squid and some unknown black and green stuff...Haha ...Its actually black beans and wasabi la ~~

Finally....Is it the end yet ? No of course if its without the dessert...Ha ha...

Nothing can be more soothing to end this course with a scoop of baskin robbins ice-cream with a slice of cheese cake and 2 cookies....

Weee.....I enjoyed the day so much by merely just eating...Haha ~~ Noticed that i also gained weight already...Heavy eating like this can be disastrous...Anyway ! Who cares.....As long i am happy and the best part is i ENJOY ~~

My Final Semester ...

This is my final semester in INTI. O.o. Its just in a glimpse of an eye i have already been in INTI for 4 years. This is so freaking long !! 4 years ~ It is definitely not a short period of time. In this 4 years what have i gained and what kind of person i have turned into. Have i changed ? What kind of friends have i make ? What experience and knowledge have i gain so far. And is already time to say goodbye to this studying society and welcoming the working life. Am i physically and mentally ready for the hazardous working life ? Am i able to cope with the stress that awaits me ? There are so many questions to be asked. A list that can be never end. I am actually partially worried about my studies for this semester because its the final semester and i really cannot afford to screw this semester. If i do. Than what i have been studying for 4 years will just go down the drain. Trying hard to slowly start studying now. Hopefully it will bring benefit to me during my final examination. Oops. Yesterday i felt sick suddenly. Maybe because i got the virus from J. He he ~ Still feeling sick at this moment but its getting better as the time passes by. Arghhhhh ~~~ FINAL semester already. Till now i just cannot believe it. For the pass few semesters i have seen people getting a good honors and some not getting the honors they wanted. Can i get the honors i dream of having ? I am not a greedy person. All i want is just a second class upper. Am i able to make my dream come true ? Balancing time and life is not an easy thing that everyone can do. If u fail once never give up. Continue on the journey where there is no ending to the pathway until you have died.

When one door closes, another opens. But we often look regretfully upon the closed doors that we don't see the one that has opened for us. (Alexander Graham Bell)

Is it the end already ?

Here i am again, no where to hide, no one to go to.Yesterday i did one very very stupid thing and after i done that stupid thing i regretted over my small kid actions. I know everyone must be very impatient wanting to know what stupid thing i did.At about 10:30pm yesterday i called Jason and say i wanted to borrow his car to drive down to KL to see J.Because me and J have been fighting almost everyday. And yesterday was the worst in our relationship.So all alone with an unclear mind of KL roads and directions together with an unfamiliar car i drove to KL.Finding the place where J is. I told J that i am driving now and for the whole journey on the phone all he ask me to do was to stop the car and turn back. Not listening to him, i just continue driving to KL. Trying to find where i should go so that J can find me. I told J i want to go KLCC because i assume it was easy to find. But unfortunately, i lost the way. And after a long time driving i finally found my way to Berjaya Times Square. So J waited there for me. And we finally met. Not saying anything, just raising his voice saying why i done such a stupid thing just to prove him wrong ? He say i make him worried all the way. We went to have dinner at a mamak stall only for about 1 hour i guess. We did not really talk much or discuss much what has happened. He ask me what i wanted to say but i just keep silent to myself. After that i drove back myself, at about 4am i reach back to Nilai. After bathing, i send J a message the main content is stating to ask for a separation.Today morning, i told my friend all about what has happen and they say its just a small matter. Why need to break up..This is not the only matter between me and J. There are so many more difficulties between us. So i waited till today afternoon, but J did not reply or say anything. I thought he was sleeping so i called him wanting to know what is his answer. And i found out he already woke up and is working now. So is the answer written clearly that it is the end already ? Not wanting to accept the fact that badly...But i guess this is the best choice.............

Am i slacking ?

Here i stand..Trying hard to put a smile on my face when i pass by the guard. Hiding the sadness in myself. Am i slacking is the question ? Always wanted time for myself to improve and when i have the time than i tend to slack. Today was such a bad day for me. I went to International Marketing class and its a one hour class. The lecturer gave a case study and ask us to prepare for the class today. And guess what...I totally forgot about it and i am the ONLY person who did not prepare for that case. I felt so down right at that moment. My thoughts tend to sway to other place with the question in my mind. What has happen to me? While i was blogging suddenly my mum's msn pop up asking me how am i ? On the way back just now..I really really wanted to tell my mum the incident but i just dont know how to put in a better way so that my mum would not fell disappointed about me. I know she have high hopes on me. My mum's msn came at the right time so i told her everything that happen to me just now in class. My mum was shocked too. And she told me to say sorry to the lecturer. How to ? I just dont have the courage because we are not in secondary school anymore where we ask the teachers for forgiveness. Than my mum pop me another question.. How can u overlook such an important case study ? You watched too much movies. The reason only i know. Is it because of J i am slacking or it is myself that i am slacking ? Who should be blame. No one other than myself.. After this incident.. Am i aware ? Am i awake from my sleep ? OR am i still in dreamland ? Am i a person who only talks and take no action ? Please CLARA ! Wake up ~ Remember your goals and not slack for other things. Always have in mind what is worth it and what is not worth it. Manage your time wisely and let nothing come in control except your ownself !! Is my whole day today ruined ? I hate myself so much .........

Stressed is how i feel....

Now at this moment, stress is the word that reflects my feeling now. I really wonder what is the meaning of stress ? The real meaning ? Am i feeling stress now ? or depressed ? or something else ? Who will know other than myself. Currently at the moment what am i seeking and searching for? Now in the office in this dark room covered with four walls i am inside writing this blog. So many things to be done. So many duty need to fullfilled. Is this a normal feeling ? or am I stress ? When i start thinking about the things that i need to complete. It is like a never ending story. I dunno when it will come to an end. Every day i come into office, exco's reminds me about things to do for Sports Fiesta than Conference than Radiance Illumination than INTIBALL than Installation Night. So many things but which should comes first. I do one and i cannot do the other one. How should i planned my time and work. I feel so stress. This is just about my work. How about my assignment that the date due is tomorrow ? I havent finish ? Not sleeping tonight to finish it ? Next week, I will have another assignment due and presentations to do. When will it come to an end. I can barely take it anymore. The only thing that i have in mind now is how can i survive this hectic moment ? I am barely hanging on. Tears begin to role down as i feel so stress and sick. Just wanting to give up everything. I just cannot take it anymore. How do i overcome this situation ?